i pretended

i pretended i didn't hear you leave but i wondered why didn't go, it seemed i didn't want to move anything 'cause it might change my memory, i pretended to my friends i was cool 'bout it 'cause they might woke me from my dream, it seemed i didn't want to face the reality and risk forgetting what has been, i could run but i couldn't hide, i tried, i hardly tried, it seemed i couldn't fly away from the feelings in me, i could smile but inside i cried, i tried to forget you 'cause i was tired but you seemed to move on easily, but i started counting my tears, put your voice out in my ears 'cause i don't want to pretend that i ain't still over you; i pretended words by zantuangelo 4th of june, 2005

never be mine

ain't no days, just lonely nights, cannot smile, just got teary eyes, wish i can fly away from this sight 'cause i fall every time your face creeps in my mind, it ain't funny, it ain't cool, just cannot stop thinking of you, so confused, don't know what to do, well, i'm not okay, i'm still not over you, wish i'm dreaming but it's real, pretending it's all cool but it's like everyday i die, wish didn't wish so hard 'cause the love that i sought can never be mine; never be mine words by zantuangelo 3rd of june, 2005